Memories
You’re stoic and even a little scary to me, yet the way you sat and talked with me when I had nobody to talk to meant more than you know. My dad was absent, staying with my mom to take care of her, so for the tenth class on Mondays and Tuesdays when I went to salsa alone, you sat down with me and spoke to me before the second hour. Even if it was about something small, like dancing shoes, your unintended kindness will forever remain in my heart.
My savior, my leader, my lamb—Jamie. I remember the first time I saw you: in a vision, in sixth grade, during P.E. It was raining so hard that my class wasn’t able to go inside. I was tired, so I rested my eyes—and yet I still saw you, in all your glory, followed by your photo on a casket. That day, I asked, and you willingly stopped the rain long enough to let me and my peers through. You are the only true thing that keeps me in this universe, that tethers me to the ground. I will forever love you and Henry more than anyone else in this universe, for you are—to me—the true gods.
I have had you two for quite some time, and it never ceases to amaze me how durable you are. My father bought the first for me for my birthday, and I was astounded—truly pleased. Later, when the first grew old, he attempted to buy me another one, only for me to keep both instead. I cried and pleaded when you tried to take the first from me, and in the end, I had two wonderful companions who stayed with me for the entirety of my childhood and beyond. Thank you, my pandas, for staying with me and helping keep the monsters under my bed away (ෆ˙ᵕ˙ෆ)♡
No matter what happens, you will always come to mind when I think of my first love, and you will forever remain one of my closest friends from my middle school years. When I look at the stars, your eyes fill my thoughts—the Magnus Archives, the number two, all of it. You, and everyone else, will forever remain a part of my soul, for you are what helped me reach my goals and follow my dreams. Writing a book, starting a website, making a game—everything creative I do, I carry you with me as one of my very first thoughts.